I wish I could find it and root it out. Maybe I could get rid of the weight in my mind. It won't stop dragging. I want to dig it out and make the dull ache go away with a sharp pain.
It will stop eventually. Then I can go on.
I always harboured the dreams and fantasies. Now I begin to see some of them fade away into something that will never happen. It's made me lost touch with all of them.
I need to catch them again.